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Anyway... wads new?... my boyfie is out from DB but the next day he got in a car crash... heres what happened... And you will also understand why I am so pissed off. I had a bad feeling and I kept asking him not to go out... but he still wanted to go clkubbing with Man, raj , kishen, eric and his other fren.... Going 160km and hour down the high way at night when it's wet is no joke but thats what Raj decided to do... and you know what the best part is??? RAJ DOESN HAVE A FREAKING LICENSE!!!!!!!
So whle trying to do some stupid shit on the high way the side of the car that my bf was sitting on crashed into another car and spun hitting the guard rails... nobody was hurt except my bf and you know what they did... they ran out from the car leaving my bf unconcious and bleeding.... den my bf crawled out and took taxi to boon lay where i met him and eric all were acting caring when actually these stupid fuckers STEPPED! yes STEPPED on my bf to get out of the car. So me n hassan brought him to hassans hse to clean up then me hassan n hassans uncle brought him to hspital. And guess what???? THE FUCKERS WERE AT BOON LAY DRINKING AND THEN THEY WENT TO SLEEP..... this was all while my bf was losing blood and in a huge amount of pain....
Ends up that my that my bf gt stitches across his eye and his vision is blurry because glass cut through the eyelid and eye, and his thigh muscle tore.... apart from that I think he is fucking lucky.
Eric told hassan when hassan confronted him about not helping in the crash that my bf has been staying at my house for 1 month plus but never bothered to call him (eric) so y must he help .... HELLO!! you are staying the same floor as me.... y cant u come here if it affected u so much?.... I didn see you calling him even once....
You kno the best part?... the people who stayed at the hospital wit my bf from 2am to 630 am were ppl who were not even in the car crash... me, hassan , hassans uncle-who might i add never met my bf b4 that incident, he just came to see....
Erics other excuse was that he thought the car was gg to explode thats why he ran..... So u are telling me you were prepared to let ur so called "fren...brother.... " die in the explosion????
I GUESS THIS IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF FINDING OUT WHO YOUR REAL FRENS ARE... i want to add that man tried to help but was unable to .... He is a good guy...
What a day to lose my earpiece... my classmates are playing sad love ongs that have me wanting to cry butttt when i went to check my bag for my ear piece to drown out the song its not fucking there... why God??? can u stop playing Sims with my life.... what kinda karma is this?.what the fuck did I do??????
Now they are playing "you are not alone" but the truth is... I am....
i'm Still All Alone (YES I AM)
how Could This Be (FUCKING ARMY THATS HOW)
you're Not Here With Me (MISSING YOU LIKE FUCK)
you Never Said Goodbye
someone Tell Me Why
did You Have To Go
and Leave My World So Cold
everyday I Sit And Ask Myself
how Did Love Slip Away
something Whispers In My Ear And Says
that You Are Not Alone
for I Am Here With You (NO I'M NOT... WISH I WAS)
though You're Far Away
i Am Here To Stay (YUP!)
you Are Not Alone
i Am Here With You
though We're Far Apart
you're Always In My Heart
you Are Not Alone
alone, Alone
why, Alone
just The Other Night
i Thought I Heard You Cry
asking Me To Come
and Hold You In My Arms(I WISH SO MUCH THAT I COULD)
i Can Hear Your Prayers
your Burdens I Will Bear
but First I Need Your Hand
then Forever Can Begin
everyday I Sit And Ask Myself
how Did Love Slip Away
something Whispers In My Ear And Says
that You Are Not Alone
for I Am Here With You
though You're Far Away
i Am Here To Stay
for You Are Not Alone
and I Am Here With You
though We're Far Apart
you're Always In My Heart
for You Are Not Alone
whisper Three Words
and I'll Come Runnin'
and I, Girl You Know That I'll Be There
i'll Be There
you Are Not Alone
i Am Here With You
though You're Far Away
i Am Here To Stay
for You Are Not Alone
i Am Here With You
though We're Far Apart
you're Always In My Heart
for You Are Not Alone
(You Are Not Alone)
for I Am Here With You
(I Am Here With You)
though You're Far Away
(Though You're Far Away)
(You And Me)
i Am Here To Stay
for You Are Not Alone
(You Are Always In My Heart)
for I Am Here With You
though We're Far Apart
you're Always In My Heart
for You Are Not Alone
not Alone, Oh
(Alone)
you Are Not Alone
you Are Not Alone
say It Again
you Are Not Alone
you Are Not Alone
not Alone
not Alone
if You Reach Out For Me, Girl
in The Morning, (IM ALONE)
in The Evening (I NEED YOU WITH ME)
not Alone
not Alone
you And Me,
not Alone, No
together,
together,
gotta Stop Being Alone,(YEAH I WISH)
gotta Stop Being Alone,
believe In Me,
gotta Stop Being Alone
gotta Stop Being Alone,
gotta Stop Being Alone,
not Alone, Oh.
So there is 88 days more if he told me the truth, 5 more if he told hassan the truth,3 more if he told his mother the truth, 38more if what he originally told me the truth..... I just dunno... im going crazy....
My boyfren is in DB n I gt no idea when he gts out... I miss him soooo much... its so hard not to think about him... which is what I need to do to stop from gg crazy... so many things are gg on in my mind... everything reminds me of him.... jus wanna hug him... smell him... because he never smells bad no matter how much he sweats, the way his hair feels, THE WAY HE SMILES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Mood:
depressed
I woke up so happi today... today is so called my 1 month wit ugesh.... He sent me such a sweet message last nigh tthat I kept reading it the whole day.. then he asked me to call and it all went down hill... i guess i'm his stressball.. wen he is angry or stressed he vents his anger on me... he doesn realise how much it hurts and so i guess i'm expected not to ask too many questions.. but not to be too quiet, I dunno .... kinda hurting right now... but wad does it matter huh?... so much for a happy 1 month anniversary....
Hmmmmm soometimes my boyfie is sooo irritatiing... to him m everything bad that happens comes down to the excuse "shit happens" like wth ... hun can u see that you make ur own shit.... He doesn go for camp because he wants to sleep and now he is facing either 40 or 90 days in DB and to him this is "shit happens" it was so called out of his hands...
grrrrrrrrrrrrr...... today he dared to be late somemore... I dunno how to wake him up and just do his NS without getting into DB so often... haizzz.
Yesterday we were fighting because I was so worried abt him and when I called him after trying to gt him the whole dAY he was wit his besti. ike WTH. not that he was wit his besti but that he didn have the thought that here i was worrying abt him and he didn even think to msg n tell me he was ok... so we were argueing and I was abt to slp and he called and I asked him "where are you ?" and he said " Why must you kno" which hurt alot and after askinghim again he said he was at my lift 22nd storey . but i jus said "ya right" and he gt angry n put down the phone WHICH I HATE WHEN PPL DO THAT! so i called him back n he said he was at my lift and to go out if i dun beleive him so i went out but i couldn see him and it hurt so much because i wanted him to be there so badly but it was already 12 plus am at night . But i decided to continue walking towards the lift in my nightgown n unbrushed hair and there at the staircase he was in his army uniform which looks so good on him... my heart melted!! he makes me so happy
- Location:school
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:blanco-pitbull
WOW after so long I'm finally updating.... hahahahahhaa... ALOT has happened in the past what is it 4 months?.... but I'm happy like fuck.... one thing that makes me happy like fuck is... 
He has made me so happy and the best part is that we were good frens b4 we became a couple so we dun need to go through that annoying "getting to kno you " stage... yup ... so I'm happy...
I made it into my 2nd yr of poly.... hahaha....
Angela has a bf and I'm sooo happy that she is happy....
My bestie has a basket of happiness on the way*wink wink* congrats!
My brother has entered NS So has kishen n law...
So anyway my amma da love gave me his nets card because he gt his NS pay on wed ($500) and now as of yesterday there is only 150 left like in 4 days he spent350!! on just movies n food and ciggies.. lol.. haiz... so I'm his new bank manager... if he wants money he has to ask me... lol... I DIDN'T SET THIS RULE!! he did!!!... so I'm just gg to have fun wit it.. llol....
So I had fun meeting my coffeeshoppers after my 2 weeks hols. MARTIN, DEENA, GLEN,MARK,FAD,NAZ,ALIF,DAPH,ANGELA,LENNY EVEN SAW ANAND....love those guys so much... but where was NICKY???? MIA!!!
From left to right :(This was last yr)
Hakim,Deena,Naz,Glenn,Angela,Mark, Nicky, Alif, Douglas,Martin,Me, Daph...... Good times!!!!!
Me and Hakim 2 weeks ago... surprisingly wearing the same thing as last yrs photo... lame ...
Me n Alif ....
Me looking tterrible.... ange, naj, me
- Location:School
- Mood:
sick - Music:Cookie jar
But now, I am tiring of it. I want to fall in love again, feel those butterflies, feel the excitement, the companionship, but I still dun think I am ready. One thing I am proud of is that I have never been those "rebound" gals.. like once they break up they date a huge number of guys coz they are on the rebound. I dun hope from one relationship to anther very fast and Im happy about that. There is nothing wrong with needing time to get over things no matter how long.
But now I want to start dtaing again, meeting new ppl... OH THANKS BEV FOR CONFIRMING WITH ME WHAT I SUSPECTED ABOUT IAN AND STARLIN.
ok ... Im now 20!!!! dunno whether Im supposed to be happy or sad but hmmm I had a great bday! thanks u guys... thanks kishen for "helping" LOL.....
I have lost 9 kg to date since january.. dunno how... but lets not jinx it ok...
Im soon to be a 2nd yr student in poly.. no more a newbie.. lol...
I will post pics soon..
OH!! HANYSAH HAD FUCKIN GOOD LUCK ON HER BDAY!!! me, wan , chelsea, pauline, angela, and adek suprised her for her bday despite the fact that she made us promise not to celebrate and so just after midnight we were talkin about when we wanna go clubbing next and we thought we would give a shot calling 987fm to see if we can win tix for RSVP party again at st james powerhouse.. lol.. AND WE GT THROUGH RIGHT AWAY TO SOO WEI!! and wan after toking a load of crap we told soo it was hnays bday and soo wei said in that case she will give us tix for RSVP!!! yessah!!!
THIS IS OUR 3RD TIME GOING!!! first at ARENA tehn last month at Zirca and now st james!!!! woo hoo!!!!!
- Music:American boy-estelle/kanye
